Saturday, Sept. 24, 2005 - 10:22 p.m. I have the worst headache right now. My head is aching and pounding at the same time. Is that possible? Reason vs. Emotion. The oldest battle. Back in the day it was believed that Men ruled Reason-town and Women ruled Emotion-ville. And neither could find their way to the other side to save their one-track lives. Now, it's a fair mix between the two, I think. Although some of that old association still exists. Here's something retroactive - de-evolving, I'm sure I'll get hate mail for this. I wish I was only emotion and no reason. Or all reason and no emotion. I don't like this mixing the camps. I feel. I feel incredibly strongly, about pretty much everything. I am powerful, emotionally. So when I hurt, I hurt. When I want to give love and affection, I want to give love and affection. I want to be true to how I feel. But reason gets in the way. Reason says to me, NO! Don't hang out with him, because you must make him see how important you are to him by not being around so that he has an opportunity to miss you. NO!! Do not disappear, he will forget about you. NO! Don't love him, he's going to hurt you. NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! Similarly, if I was all reason and no emotion, I know what I would do. I would say, FUCK THAT NOISE, and walk away. Say goodbye. On to something else. Remove the thing from your life that doesn't make it better. Like right now. Make it shut up, please.
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