Tuesday, Aug. 23, 2005 - 10:45 a.m.
questionably alone

I'm about to check my email again. I have that sick sinking feeling in my stomach.

I hate feeling like this. I was thinking this morning that I should really consider the idea that I should be alone forever. Not because I have to be, but because I should be. I get way too involved with people I care about, I get way over the top with my emotions.

And I pick the wrong people to love constantly. My life has been a succession of one huge hurt after another.

I'm really sick of it.


ne gallum quidem...

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