Wednesday, Feb. 23, 2005 - 6:53 p.m. What did I say? How happy was I not six hours ago? And now, after trying on every item of clothing in my closet I suddenly feel like the most hideous creature on earth. The questions I have: Why can't I stop eating? It's so unreasonable. I am not hideous. I know that. I have no real reason to feel unlucky. In philosophy class tonight we discussed the 'experience box' issue, where you could be hooked up to basically the matrix, only it's perfect, and it doesn't reject. You wake up in the morning feeling fabulous and refreshed and perfect, and your day consists of perfect things that you love to do. So why wouldn't you do it - allow them to hook you up? Or would you? I thought about the lack of freedom imposed by this machine, and suddenly I didn't care. I would sign up in a second. I am thinking about getting back on the meds, but their side effects aren't worth it. It's stupid what I find important to my happiness. I'm really unimpressed.
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